Absent

All I want to do is make sweet love to you,
make you smile that infinite unfading smile,
send you to the moon.

But you gently lay me down
and turn my head aside.

My heart swells
beats a rhythm
anxious.
Full
and spinning

You peel away my skin
I tremble
Feel misplaced
Unnatural

I reach
To grab onto nothing
Hearing reverberant echoes
Lover’s laughs

Hollow hallway
I stand
Head pressed
To the wall
Body pressed
To the wall
Staring, hearing my heart
Beat through the wallpaper